I’ve been to 3 weddings in the last six months . All were my closest and dearest friends my sisters . And my niece asked me well all your friends are getting married why aren’t you ? And when she asked me that I didn’t really even realized that that was happening . That all my friends were getting married and I was and am still single . (My niece is 14 so at that age we tend to speak without thinking but the truth of it still stands )
So why aren’t I married ?
To be frank I don’t know but I don’t think I care either . Marriage is something so beautiful and Jehovah is the originator of marriage (Genesis 2:21-24).
I’ve watched my dearest friends marry the loves of their lives and seen the love that exist between them and their mates and the depth of it and it’s stunning . I remembered how I cried because I just knew they were happy,safe and that they would be cared for the way they deserved . For me I don’t think it’s a matter of if it’s something I want or if it’s for me anymore kind of thing . I’m just single and that is enough for me . I’m enough for me and I’m just trying to be the best me I can be . Not for anyone else , but to please my God . Sometimes we want things that we may not be ready for or we want to give all this love that we have to share it with someone and I do have a lot of love to give . It may not be given to a mate but it’s given to my family my friends my love ones . Yes the dynamics are different but for me there isn’t a void anymore .
It used to be one because I felt that the love I have should be given to the man I marry and yes that’s true but love has so many different facets . So many different faces and meanings and I feel content with where my love is going . It’s not being wasted or thrown away or disrespected .
Yes I have my days where I am sad or lonely and that’s okay . But I can say that most of my days are full . Full of love , anxiety , disappointments , laughter and setbacks . But they are full and meaningful and crazy lol
So there isn’t a reason why I’m not married . Not any particular one . And that should be enough .